Off topic ramble

I often find myself in a situation where I feel as if I do what I have to and never do what I want to. However, what I have to do is what I have chosen to do so would it not be what I want to do? Thus, in reality am I doing what I want to do and not doing what I don't want to do. Why then do I long to do those things that I, by default, do not want to do. Perhaps I want do too much. What is a reasonable amount for a man to do? When is it time to rest? When does a man feel justified in his rest? Is there rest in doing? Should there be rest in doing?

I want to do only things that are of lasting consequence. Those things that produce no durable results in the form of a bettered relationship, tangible product, a changed soul, an educated mind, or a good memory, I do not want to do. Perhaps I should prioritize my doing by the results produced by my doing.

Changed souls first, educated minds second, tangible products third with bettered relationships and good memories along the way. Why then do I tend to desire to do things that will instead improve my economic or social status, even to the detriment of those things that should be first and second? Is there a way to achieve number one and number two one and two while improving relationships, and improving my social and economic status?

The Bible says slow and steady plodding is what bring wealth to a man. I would say that is not just monetary wealth, but is true wealth in the terms of relationships and spiritual well being. Jimmy Stewart in the movie Harvey, says he could be either smart or kind, and he was smart and made a lot of money, but chose to be kind because being smart didn't win any friends. Perhaps I should do as the Word says and seek first the kingdom of heaven and all these shall be added unto me...

For what it's worth, that is my off topic ramble for the week.
DAG